Davik,
As others have said, it's perfectly normal to be confused about spirituality, both because you're young and because you're just beginning on this path. The best thing to do is to keep reading and to keep asking questions on forums like this one until you have the ability to pursue your interests face-to-face.
I'd like to give you some concrete resources to check out:
1. This forum has loads of resources for you to read. Look at the top of the screen and click on "Pagan Features". In particular, I'd strongly recommend that you read our
Teens and Paganism FAQ and the
Pagan Primer. While they don't focus exclusively on neoDruidism, they will give you a lot of good information about paganism in general, which is really important for you to understand, and they do talk a bit about Druidism.
2. There are some reputable neoDruidry organizations that have excellent websites. Even if you can't actually join them now, you can use the resources they have online. Here's a
list of Druidry organizations, with some explanation about the different types. I'm not sure if all of these organizations still exist, but it's a good place to start.
Also, be sure to check out these specific groups, which are well-known and (I believe) reasonably reputable:
Ár nDraíocht FéinThe Order of Bards, Ovates, and Druids (OBOD)
Henge of Keltira3. You might also check our (and other) resources on
Celtic Reconstructionism (CR). It's not the same as Druidry, but it is closely related and relies on many of the same sorts of historical and mythological sources that Druidry does.
In addition, TC (The Cauldron -- this forum) has a Special Interest Group (SIG) on Celtic Polytheism. Again, not exactly the same thing as Druidry, but you'll learn a lot. Check out the threads
here.
Here are a couple of other excellent resources on CR:
CR FAQ -- includes a good section on Druidry
Imbas -- lots of good articles
Deioukara -- includes an FAQ and a newly reactivated forum where you can post questions
Finally, I have to disagree with Caomi and warn you away from anything written by Edain McCoy, who is notorious for very bad history.
I hope these links help you.
Thanks for all the pointers! I will read when I can focus.

I have to take breaks between reading stuff. You really helped a lot.
Thanks to everyone else too. I am not ready to choose really or dedicate myself to a certain way yet because its all too much to handle still but I'll do stuff slowly...