Thanks for all the pointers! I will read when I can focus.

I have to take breaks between reading stuff. You really helped a lot.
Thanks to everyone else too. I am not ready to choose really or dedicate myself to a certain way yet because its all too much to handle still but I'll do stuff slowly...
You're very welcome. I hope the information is interesting to you and helps you start to explore your spirituality and figure out where you want to go.
I'm really glad to see you say that you're not ready to choose any particular spiritual path yet. That's very wise of you. Tons of people explore a wide variety of ideas before finding or deciding on the one they want to stick to and that can take a very long time. So be patient with yourself. Spirituality is not a race.

As you read through the resources available to you, you'll probably find that you have specific questions. TC is a great place to ask those questions. There are people who post here who have a lot of experience with druidry and with lots of other religious paths, including Christianity and Judaism and other more "mainsteam" religions. Many of us are happy to try to answer questions, so this is a good resource for you too.
Good luck!