I probably would border on atheism, actually. Being a pantheist, seeing nature and the Divine as exactly the same thing, I do NOT believe that deities are separate entities, in and of themselves. Sentient. I don't believe that. While, I see nature and the Divine as living, I don't see them in a thinking, willing form. I think it them as energy forces only. If that makes sense. I don't believe bad happenings, IMO. And this comes from real life experience. I also do believe in spirits but,
As a mystical type i never understood this idea of energy without consciousness. The fatal flaw in science and to some extent athiesm is the inability of both to explain consciosness. Even steven hawking hypothesizes that life exists on countless worlds and its reasonable to assume, he says that concious life exists as pure energy, gaseous life forms and crystaline forms. No one can yet explain cognition, so its too early for anyone to believe in non conscious deities isnt it? On the other hand mystics and buddhists seek escape from self, extinguishing conscious, yet finding utimate truth. My point being if we can accept magic, spirits and so on, how do we discard divine with consciousness in whatever form ultimate truth reveals itself
Human life is too basic to yet claim sophisticated consciousness, as wondrous as we are. Ultimate truth is not yet knowable... Or else we wouldnt be discussing this. Yet, if we give up the quest for ultimate truth, what use is magic. It becomes illusory.