This doesn't resemble my depression in any way. There is no feeling low- there is simply no feeling. I am numb to the world, I do not react to stimulus, good or bad. My depression is like a thick sludge- it weighs me down and contaminates everything I touch. I stop living and simply exist, eating when reminded, moving when pushed.
Living in perpetual inertia is not good for anything that needs to grow, so I don't see any way that my depression has aided my path.
I am sorry. I hope you find a way.